i'm still coughing and spluttering so i wouldn't get too close to the screen if i were you. i've not been able to sing for weeks now coz everytime i draw breath i seem to cough. not good. hopefully it'll be gone when i wake up one morning soon. i was out at the weekend with my friend barry making a little video that i hope to get up on the site at some stage. it's to accompany a song that'll be on the album called 'the sore feet song'. it was fun to do and i just need to talk another friend into editing it. it's nothing fancy at all but these things are always interesting to do.
the archive blogs are now accessible thanks to web guru graeme.
i just wrote a song and i have no one here to share it with so i'm sharing it with you. working title is 'is it too late to work for NASA?'. but that'll probably change, it often happens with me. i'll go to bed now though i know what'll happen. i'll lie there and try to switch off from it but it'll go through my head and lines i really like will pop up like little fountains and i'll lie there thinking 'this is great but please go away till tomorrow' but then i'll realise i'll forget them but i'll be really tired, like on the verge of sleep so i won't bother getting up to scribble them down. often that's the time thoughts are most lucid and inspired right before you drift off or just as you're waking up - two times when getting up is incredibly difficult for me. anyway, good night. x
throat infections aren't much fun :(
i always seem to blog on a tuesday. i have no idea why. i don't wanna get in some stale routine with blogging, it shouldn't be a weekly occurance. look, even the time is quite similar to last week. very strange. getting stale isn't good. getting stuck in a rut, being bankrupt of ideas or inspiration or desire. not good. going through your daily routine without doing something different/testing each day. going on autopilot. not waking up. being consumed by rubbish (and you know deep down it's rubbish!). becoming oblivious to what you're not achieving. becoming oblivious to what you're capable of. not looking after yourself. not eating your greens. drinking too much too often. making an enemy of your future. consuming vast amounts of wotsits. not good.
i was watching the flaming lips play on saturday night and it struck me that they may do the same show each night (my friend told me that he saw them in london a little while ago and then in glasgow on saturday night and wayne's touching speeches about the iraq conflict and elliot smith were almost identical) but they mean what they say and their shows move on and evolve. it's hard in the gloom of winter sometimes to see ahead to the spring and to the sun. but it'll come and you've got to make things happen for yourself and test yourself and push yourself and question what's going on and not accept second best. it's hard though when we're conditioned into settling for the mediorce or uninspired or false. so will i take my own advice? i hope so. i need to quit being lazy and stop eating toasties. i received a toastie maker and i'm hooked. i'll put anything in it, one night after a night of dancing in the art school i poured the entire contents of my fridge into my toastie, including a particularly distressed looking mushroom and a milky way.
you should never think too hard before sitting down and releasing a blog. it should be spontaneous i think. all my blogs are just random thoughts and occasionally i'm sure they seem a little incoherent. it's just a flow of consciousness i guess. after the gig with sodastream i've been keeping an eye from afar on how their tour is progressing. i touched upon that in my last blog. it's a tough business, flying from the other side of the world and playing to a different city/town each night. in gloomy winter too. for little reward and a gruelling schedule with little sleep and hours of driving in a cramped van and eating raw potatoes. so when you arrive in a town and play a gig that people have enjoyed it must be a great feeling. equally if you've spent 6 hours getting there to find no one is interested it must be horrible. if you've played and connected in some way and captured someone's attention and won their heart then that's amazing. i've seen artists playing gigs before where people have been chatting but they've connected with me and i've been staring intently, listening closely. i've looked around and few people are bothered. i always think about that, about how if i was doing a gig and no one was seeming to paying attention then i should remember that very time that i was listening and watching and believing. there might be just one person who understands.
oh, have a read at http://sodastream.net.au/ and go to travels and read their diaries. there are some lovely mp3s too that you should check out too.
